It's been a very hard last 10 or so weeks of school for me and I have to say I'm glad it's over. Not saying that I didn't enjoy this class but It was hard to stay on track for some reason. I have to say that writing my research paper on domestic violence was a huge learning experience for me. The subject was a reminder of 16 years of my life, that no matter how hard I try, I can never forget. It is true that abuse causes physiological disorders, I have been diagnosed myself with post traumatic stress syndrome. I have been out of my abusive relationship for 3 years now, but some days it feels like I'm still in it. The pressure's that I still inflict on MYSELF, the trying to figure out who I am, trying to raise two children on my own when I have never even paid bills before, or had to manage a budget. When i screw up now, I punish myself in some form. I learned in my research some of the steps to take in getting back on my feet. I also learned about a lot of programs that are available for women who have suffered from abuse. I had never heard of some of these programs and wish I had along time ago. I can say that I acted irrationally by staying, my excuse was "It was better for the kids". I can see now that it wasn't, because they are truly happier now, you can see it on their faces.
I wish everyone luck on your papers, and hope to see some of you in upcoming classes. Professor Manning it has been a pleasure, you were a wonderful teacher and I will take with me all you have taught us.