It's been a very hard last 10 or so weeks of school for me and I have to say I'm glad it's over. Not saying that I didn't enjoy this class but It was hard to stay on track for some reason. I have to say that writing my research paper on domestic violence was a huge learning experience for me. The subject was a reminder of 16 years of my life, that no matter how hard I try, I can never forget. It is true that abuse causes physiological disorders, I have been diagnosed myself with post traumatic stress syndrome. I have been out of my abusive relationship for 3 years now, but some days it feels like I'm still in it. The pressure's that I still inflict on MYSELF, the trying to figure out who I am, trying to raise two children on my own when I have never even paid bills before, or had to manage a budget. When i screw up now, I punish myself in some form. I learned in my research some of the steps to take in getting back on my feet. I also learned about a lot of programs that are available for women who have suffered from abuse. I had never heard of some of these programs and wish I had along time ago. I can say that I acted irrationally by staying, my excuse was "It was better for the kids". I can see now that it wasn't, because they are truly happier now, you can see it on their faces.
I wish everyone luck on your papers, and hope to see some of you in upcoming classes. Professor Manning it has been a pleasure, you were a wonderful teacher and I will take with me all you have taught us.

Spring has arrived and I have spring fever. Its really hard to stay focused on writing my final papers when the sun is shining so brightly.
My oldest daughter is getting ready for her junior prom, I cant believe she is almost at the end of highschool. Were did the time go!!! She just recieved a letter in the mail saying that she was excepted into the National Honors Society, I am so proud. My youngest starts softball this week, she has been playing for about 6 years. She is the catcher for her teamm and well on her way to a softball career...she is awsome. Im very proud of my girls!!
I still have had no luck finding a job, I have put in well over 25 apllications. Keep praying for me.